How hard it is to leave someone behind

Sometimes you get a good week; sometimes you get a bad one.

Last week was not the best we have had so far. Things were not going as well as we have hoped.

I feel that at times like this, when we are most Vulnerable, when we are Simply down, I should be with that someone close.

But it was not meant to be. I had to travel ona job for the first time since i came.

I never have been so Reluctant to leave that Some one behind (think Europe, Vietnam, Taiwan and Chicago).......

This time, I was not ready to leave. I wanted to be there, i wanted to be the ear that is listening, i wanted to be that mouth that is offering solutions, I wanted to be that comforting arm, assuring voice, calming presence.... I just wanted to be everything that I can be.... Everything that she wants me to be……

Since it did not turn out to be what I have wished, I tried to spend the last moments with her, before leaving with a heavy heart.

All i could do is to promise…. I will be back as soon I can be… dearie..