Buay Sian ah! (Are you not sick of it?)

I have to blog this... before things change.

We have a big group here, and obviously some are closer to you than others. Obviously, as a matter of protecting your esteem, one tend to be closer to those who are more inferior than yourself (*cue* ZW, Siller, Thinmothy and Sha Ren)

Aiyah.. i side tracked again...

Anyway... as I was trying to quote Thinmothy... we had "that conversation" again.. let me quote from his MSN... it's darn funny in my opinion

T!M$UM says:
we come here read each other's shit everyday
T!M$UM says:
despite meeting each other
T!M$UM says:
and tokkong to each other
Yiren (blessedyiren.blogspot.com) says:
and msn
T!M$UM says:
EVERYDAY!!
Yiren (blessedyiren.blogspot.com) says:
only when we pang sai and pang jio or when we are bathing
Yiren (blessedyiren.blogspot.com) says:
do we not talk to each other

End of message...

Some call it fate... some call it conincidence... But don't you find it amazing... (I am a believer of God created and planned every SINGLE event that is happening... nothing is fated unless fated=God planned)

One extended period of time, you build up such great relationship (eg JC, Army, Uni)... then the time come for u to move on to other things, some greater, some less.... Then, life just moved on.

One thing I really like to share with myself is how different pple will see me, as compared to how I see myself in places...

Some pple tend to think... "wah seh... I am so high profile in this place, so close to my colleagues, on such good terms with everyone... surely everyone will feel the void when I leave"

But based on personal experience, I know that life will simply go on... pple move on... things carry on... no one, and usually nothing much stops to think about you even when you are gone...

Is it sad? No lah... I pray to God to give me the ability to realise how small I am in this world, and wherever I am in (not in an inferior way, but in a humble way). Such that I should appreciate every thought that pple have of me, every kind words said. And if someone doesnt read your blog, doesnt want to do things according to your wishes, dont get pissed... like I told someone close:"No one owes you a living, except your really close other half"

Quite confusing hor... actually I just wanna say... me, and you... yes, we... we are really small... but we are unique and we are important in our very own way... yet not that important. So... stop thinking that everyone's life rotates around you... wake up and be considerate towards others... appreciate others if they are nice to you, they REALLY dont owe u a living. eh... even more confusing...

Just be nice lah... honestly... appreciate pple ard you... ur frens, ur family (I always say:"Thank you ma!" after each meal she cooked for me, unless I am angry with her... haha... I do this not to "tick against a checklist", but to sincerely thank her for cooking for me without really wanting anything in return, but just my satisfaction from a home cooked meal. *tears man!* And I do this, just to let her know that I really appreciate every good or bad meal she cooks for me...) I miss home now... haha..

Most importantly, I really pray that I can sincerely appreciate Christ's death for me on the cross... somehow not so much gan chu (emotions) at this point. "God... pump my heart please... dont let it die"

Hmm... very long winded... but again... it's for my record sake... thanks for persevering to this end... appreciate that (preaching what I say)